No detours in the life plan! (An ignorable rant)
Nonononono. The plan is to find a job so we can move far away from here. This year. A simpler life. More relaxed. More accessible. More sane. I do not like here! I've been here too long!
Must you call to recruit the spouse for a job that pays 35-45% more than now? Nonono. Why couldn't it pay less? Must the job description make him literally "ooh" and "ahh"? Nonono. Why couldn't it suck? It would make it so much easier to say "not worth even considering" but nooooo. Considering it is the responsible thing. It could get us closer to what we want. Imagine what we could save in a year. Imagine what experience could be gained.
Nonono. Reading job descriptions for federal jobs gives me a migraine as it is. Mr. big contractor happens to come along just days after the govt says no new clearances until this mess is cleared up. Which means his becomes more valuable. And now, in order to decide responsibly, I gotta look at the pension stuff. Lose 2% benefit if he leaves now instead of in two years or more. Calculate the net increase in pay (holy shit). Figure what that could mean (ohmygawd). All the things to take into consideration. Can we benefit tons from this or will we regret it? Will anything even open up where we want to go before I die? Can we be bought or is it okay if it's only for a year? Does it damage my integrity to consider it? Or is it just unfortuante that money is the root of everything: opportunity, choice, independence, access, etc.?
Damndamndamn.
And damn again.



4 comments:
Hey there, Manxome...
I'm not sure what your beliefs are, like, mystically and stuff, but I am a pagan who sort of specializes in divination.
I haven't been very spiritual lately, but if you're looking for some advice on how to tackle this, I would be honored if you'd allow me to consult some charts, throw some bones, read some chicken entrails ("Damn it, chicken, come HERE! I only want to see your lower intestine!" - just kidding!), and take a gander at how the threads are moving in relation to this decision in your life.
You know, sort of a tiny "Thank you" for your help? It's not much, and hell, you might not even believe in that hocus pocus nonsense at all... but I figured it couldn't hurt to offer.
You can drop me an e-mail (dubhe82 at yahoo dot com), if you like. I'd be happy to do anything I can to maybe help clear things up a little....
~Dubhe
Damn is right. If this offer came along after you'd finalized your offer on a house (I don't know anything about buying houses) or made definite committements in the new place, it'd be no problem. You could say damn, the money would be nice, but we're committed.
But it came along now. Why does life *always* work like this? In these situations I always get back to the old pro & con list on a piece of paper. Sigh. I hope you can figure this out with a minimum of headaches.
whoa...
I'm shocked. Especially because I still have your email sitting in my inbox waiting for a response. And now, this changes everything. Whoa.
Being the money-conscious freak that I am, I would say he has to take it. But, sometimes I overlook happiness for money, so don't take that seriously.
Then again, I have suffered through the past year because I had a great job in a town that I hate...and I have managed to save a pretty penny and have found a way to move back to my desired home and keep my job. Perhaps something similar will happen to you all...
Gr. I don't have the right words. I am so sorry. And happy (for the possible income increase).
Maybe you can take more vacations and do more photography for the next year and see what happens...?
Okay, I'm just waiting now to see what happens.
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