Arrgh

So, I call the ex psych doc's office because I want a copy of my file. There's no particular reason, really, except that it documents a 5 years period of my life in a psych-med induced haze that partially fried my memory. I might want to refer to it, for example, every time some new revelation about pharmaceutical company lies are revealed or I experience some health issue and want to look back at that for possible causes.

Which may be the problem. Hahaha

I left a message and got a call back from office staff, saying nope. "Why?" I asked, and was met with silence, prompting me to ask if the caller was even still on the phone, let alone the planet. I asked again, and was told that office policy was that they only release to other doctors.

I'm not a huge conspiracy theorist, but I am a skeptic. My records, of my treatment, and I don't have access to them?

So I asked what am I supposed to do if, say 30 years in the future (when he is dead, I think privately) a doctor does need those records? "Oh, we destroy them after 7 years."

Sure ya do. And that serves the patient, right? Not you, not pharma. Right? Let the conspiracy begin!

And I look up law/statute stuff on this, and because I'm no lawyer, I can only vaguely comprehend the general stuff. (I say 'vaguely' because in law-speak, a perfectly normal sounding everyday word that you think you know the meaning of can have it's own special convoluted definition. Because law, like medicine, is here to serve the public. Hahaha)

Okay, so law sez they're not my property. And I should be able to request a copy, with exceptions. Exceptions? Lemme look further at some state law looking stuff...

However, copies of a patient's records shall not be furnished to such patient when the patient's treating physician or clinical psychologist, in the exercise of professional judgment, has made a part of the patient's records a written statement that in his opinion the furnishing to or review by the patient of such records would be reasonably likely to endanger the life or physical safety of the patient or another person, or that such health records make reference to a person, other than a health care provider, and the access requested would be reasonably likely to cause substantial harm to such referenced person.

Seeing as how the files are now in storage, says office person, it's not like anyone pulled them to find a note saying "Oh Noes! Don't ever let her read this shit as it would endanger humans!" Rather, it is assumed that simply being a consumer of mental services that I am by default a scary person. Like being on that crap for 5 years was a walk in the park and it would be seeing my records, and not the actual hell that was life-on-meds, that would send me over the edge.

Fuckers.

I'm just fuming, is all.