An analogy 6 years in the making
The news is that its par for the course.
When my spouse walked in and saw me reading the news story, he said, "Damn, I didn't want you to see that."
It's like finally getting away from an abusive partner, only to find they just came out with a pop-psychology bestseller on relationships and are basking in the rave reviews, kudos, and elevated status received as a result of their aggressively humble self-promotion. Alas, to tell the whole tale would just invite wrath from the masses for selfishly tainting the pure sugary-goodness of the story and its massive touchy-feely fest.
I was eventually plucked from the claws of death-by-cynicism-overdose with the administration of an episode of "My Name is Earl", but symptoms returned with a vengeance when that was followed by an episode of "The Office".
for the NNAF
3 comments:
I am imagining a painful story.
I hope it actually isnt. If so, hang in there!
Will, thank you. It's probably not as painful as you think. I can't find a way to explain it clearly, so the post is an analogy. It is one of those things that one turns inward to produce anxiety. I'm good at that.
That same day I read a post about the pain of compassion, which relates a lot to the experience I'm expressing in disguise here. In it, aspazia states, "We simply have no power over what people think or do to us. We only have power over what kind of person we let others turn us into."
That is what a lot of this is about. Having compassion, hope, integrity, and being let down by the reaction. I figured I needed to express the disappointment to be relieved of it. Instead, I need to learn to drop the expectation that it will solicit a positive response.
good thought. I had to learn to drop my expectations of what was a normal parent-child relationship when I was 18. It benefited me greatly and allowed me to have a relationship that I didnt have previously
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